Thursday, April 27, 2006
The previous post was bad salad.
Except that the person whom it was meant for it hasn't seemed to have received it. I don't know why you don't get it, lol. I thought I'd made it all quite direct. It could be that you did, but didn't show it, knowing how you don't tend to make things open until after a while. I don't know when I'll get to know. Maybe much later, maybe never. Sometimes it makes me confused. And I
do want to know lol, but if it means making things difficult for you I'd rather not know. Whatever it is, that post wasn't supposed to mean anything bad.
This is just one of those things I would never say in front of anyone.
I'm saying this to everyone in general: even if I knew what you were addressing in your posts/msn nicks/speech, I wouldn't comment. Not because I don't care, not because I'm afraid of how you'd respond. It's because I'm a disgusting coward who won't take things up to your face even if I'm screaming the fucking words inside.
This is probably isn't worth crying over in my case, but I really hate to see things go this way. And I feel
rotten because there doesn't seem to be anything I can do about it, except write it all here and hope that somehow,
even when it all starts to end, you might get it.
I would like to fall really, really ill right now.
